A Learning Decision

Dear Unconditional Love - What would you have me know today? 

Oh, honey. I’m here. What I want you to know today is that you are so loved. It’s ok to be scared. The world is scary. It makes sense you see headlines and worry it’ll be you next.

That could be true, you’re right.

It is equally true that it is inevitable that you will die. That is true too. I’m so sorry this is bringing you down so much when all you want is to be calm.

What is calm anyway? I know you want to know. I get that. You’re a seeker. It’s ok to seek. It’s ok to be. I’ll be here either way.

What is it that you really seek my love? I know you’re wondering too. I know you want this trip to be proof that you deserve time away. But you felt uneasy before you left, like it wasn’t a good fit. I think you were right. And I think it is ok you came anyways. Even when we don’t make the right decision, we make a learning decision. That sounds cliche, because it is.

Cliches are repetitive truths because they keep happening. More and more people repeat them, they become cliches.

This trip was a learning trip for you, which is the right decision. I’m so proud of you for not be paralyzed by the anxiety of righteousness. I know you’ve been there before.

Hold your boys close when you get home. That will always be the right decision. Always so much right with them. Always so much to learn. Best of both worlds those boys are. Hug them tight. You too, babe. Sweet dreams. 

Another unintentional learning… always thumb your lips after lipstick to avoid pink teeth =P