Two Way Prayer - Believe in Love

Dear Unconditional Love - What would you have me know today?

Hey, love. So good to hear from you. I’m so proud of you for not forcing yourself to sit down at your computer or with your phone and get in touch with me. I can feel every time that you think of interrupting the flow of your life to do that and I hear you think, “I know love has got me. I’m ok” and that makes me so thrilled and relieved for you.

Our relationship together is one of necessity. We will always need each other, which is a relief because we always have each other. Always have, always will.

When I see you enjoying your life and wanting to spend time celebrating that rather than spending time sitting with me, I take no offense. I know you will come here when you need to. I trust you, and I can feel you beginning to trust me. What a beautiful fluid relationship we have. One of no expectations, no worrying that the other will be offended. I know you’ve been dealing with that earthside lately and it feels so heavy. I know you’re dealing with other things earthside too.

Ask me about work, it’s ok. I don’t feel like you’re doing it just to check a box, I know it’s really weighing on you. 

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Love, what would you have me do about work?

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Oh, honey. I know you can feel my reassurance for you flowing out already. I want you to be content with your work, not stressed, not worried if you’re doing enough. And I can feel you constantly feeling that way right now. It’s been so hard to build your confidence at work and to really want to dive into it to do anything about it because you’re worried you can’t. And you hate the long game explanation. “Oh this is all for 5 years from now when we sell and you get $X.” Well, that’s great, but it’s pulling you down NOW.  

I know you long to feel confident in a new challenge, rather than dragged down by the same old one. I know you know the grass may not be greener on the other side, that’s smart, you’re right. But the grass isn’t so green here and I know your work is suffering because of your worry. You are suffering because of your worry.

If we’re being honest, you could always spend 2 years building your confidence and then come back if you want. Maybe not for as much, but for enough. You could also still continue to do this if you want to at the same freaking time. So, yes, apply for that job. Keep applying. Put your whole effort in. It’s ok to and it’s ok not to hear back. But keep doing what you’re doing WHILE reaching. You’re so much better at boundaries now, it’ll be different than SAP was. You are worth the negotiation, they will want you and they will be fluid with you if it’s the right fit.

Good luck, my love. I’ll be here, babe. We all will. Rivian on!

No such thing as a coincidence, right? “Believe in Love” from Super Bowl 50.