“Paying” Attention

Dear Unconditional Love - What would you have me know today?

Hey there, love. How is your brownie? I know you love how thoughtful your friend is when she makes those. It makes you feel seen. Like someone is paying attention like you pay attention. 

It’s interesting the terminology we use about “paying” attention isn't it? As if it costs us anything to direct our attention to things that we feel are important. I want you to know that it doesn’t. It doesn't cost you anything to put your phone down and be with Smooshy. I know it feels like it because you have the threat of finances, but that's been solved in the short term. It really has. 

I know you think being with him and engaged in a physical way will cost you the integrity of your pelvic floor and abs again. But, honey, it won’t. Be with him safely. Be silly. Don’t prioritize your pelvic floor over engagement with him. Because if you do it WILL cost you memories. That’s true. I don’t want that for you and I know you don’t want that either. 

Have so much fun making those hard boiled eggs today, what a beautiful way to make memories with your Smooshy without exerting physical energy. I’m so proud of you for finding that sand and sitting with him to do it too. And I know how much that meant to you. I really get it. Purple for Hopey and time with Smooshy without distraction of your physical state.

There are plenty of more things you can find that will fill those gaps. I know you can, my love. That’s all for now. I love you.