A Blip In Time
Dear Unconditional Love - What would you have me know about my life?
Hey there, love. Gosh what a beautiful day you had. I know it’s so hard to be present when you have a pesky pelvic floor. Or when you have a human body at all. That’s the truth. I know you feel alone and I want you to know that every being in a body is interrupted by bodily thoughts during their day. I’m not saying that to dismiss you, I’m saying that because it is your training that has led you to distrust your body in the first place.
I know you've worked so hard to bring yourself back to trusting your body again and it feels like it betrays you over and over. I’m so sorry you’re feeling that way AND you know how I told you that the LA trip you took was a learning trip? How everything kept going “wrong” and you had the perspective to understand the larger learnings that were taking place that you would or would not let happen again?
Well, my love. You are laying a learning foundation right now. For yourself and for other women who are struggling that will share similar struggles with you that you will be able to help. I am so happy for you, which I know sounds sadistic. But it isn’t. I’m so glad you’re here. I know it feels like you let this go a long time, and I’m telling you that it is just a blip in time compared to your life. Just like today was with your son. What a beautiful day. His love of baseball is growing, his involvement of you is returning back. It’s such a beautiful thing.
This isn’t a platitude. This is a blip in time and there is so much to be grateful for. I know it sounds “ick” and that doesn’t mean it isn’t true. I’m here with you and I love that you’re clearing your home to make room for Hopey the next two days. Take all the space you need. She’s right here. Call to her tomorrow, or any day, if you’d like. I’m happy to share more about how things are going for us and how we’re here cheering you on from the front row while we twirl together. We love you, Mama. I mean Mommy. Hehe see you tomorrow, love. I love you.
Love,
Love & Hopey